TECHnoGRAPHIC

Stories can be wrote and deleted.memories are carved into out small,sick,twisted mind.jump from one place to another,connecting and making the whole stories become believable.at lest to our own self.friend come in between.to add the spice,joy and what not.sometimes people, or capital letter friends come and go.with or without a reason.money,fame,companion are some of the main reason for them to stay and leave.
all this are fact.SO don't Denny it.
If Ur lucky enough, or at lest trying."soul mate" will come.touching and ripping Ur heart.there no reason for this.they come and leave with a different reason.u hope they won't leave,but they will..trust me.I've been there.........

Ever seen i know u,my life have been SO wonderfull,fullfiled..atlest.i've been threw SO many shit.shiat.shout!. don't know the reason of this problem my self.just cant figure it out.sometimes when Ur to good with people,the comfort level are just not there anymore.u can kissed,hugged,slapped,cursed without making any permanent effects.I'm SO afraid of this plan that come with being to good with people.being to good+people u love=not last forever!seriously.this is my own experience.not asking for believer nor rebel er.just stating the fact.at first it just a dilemma,now phobia came in.told u SO many times.hope u remember when and what have been told by me.it like an energy forcing me to just drop the friendship.maybe it just me.the dark side of me, that i would never discover.or just did, but not aware of.constantly pushing the friendship to an edge.by telling Ur darkest secret,Ur worst habit.Ur "can't tell u" secret.maybe that why.hey I'm not a physiologist.hope will never will be.i do want to continued.maybe i regret all this after I've been sober.sober from drug.drug of life.life of me.me and you.now and in the near future.forever friendships?.base on soul mate.there no reason of me being friend with u.it's all cause i wanted to.love.acceptedness.care.bealive in the other hearts.love u like crazy.never been shown.should it be? should it be shown to the rest of the world?.that would just going to judge it.say the word like.poitless.useless.should it?is it fair for me?u? us?.the judge of justice can't do anything now.it have been said and done.nasik dah jadew bubuw.i wanted to take it back.i can't accept what i wrote.that the reason of phone formating.if i can format my mind.i would.i will.I'm trying.couse the shame.guilt.all the memories and happiness just been poured down the drain...
unbelievable u said?.unforgivable i said.nonhuman act of sudden panic attack.that what it is.i know u understand what i wrote clearly.u have a English literature base english.mind me from the bad spelling.i cant see today.and i cant see tomorow.now confusemnet came to my mind.eating and hacking into my head.not just that.absorb it self into my vain.dithering every word i meant to wrote.twisting.twisted narrator of love.friendship.novel

me/Matt